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Change October 11, 2012

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Change is on my heart today. It has been for awhile now, for months really. I’ve known that it would come. But when the ball starts rolling one of two things can happen, either feelings of relief, or feelings of fear. Today, I’m feeling fear. These changes haven’t effected me too deeply yet, but they will. Oh they will. And it’s only a matter of time. My fear is intensified because the ball of change has started rolling and when it hits me, I fear it will be a hard hit. One that might knock me off of my feet a little bit.

 

I had a situation a few weeks ago that was a big blow to me. It was the first time in a very, very long time (years) where I found myself saying to the Lord, ‘God you don’t feel like a GOOD God today. I know that you say that you work out all things according to your plan and that that plan is a GOOD plan, but today, I’m just not seeing it. Today, I feel like you’re pulling the rug out from under me. Today I feel abandoned.” I chose to trust that day in a GOOD God. Because no matter my feelings, no matter my perspective, He doesn’t change. He is the same God on my bad days that He is on my good days. I had to do a little self-counsel, as my pastor would call it, and remind myself that God is good and he is working out his perfect plan in my life, moving me towards sanctification with each passing day and that this, really, really bad day, was all a part of His plan.

 

Although today is not nearly as bad of a day, this change begs me to remind myself of a few things. I have a faithful God. He will supply. He knows where we’re at, what we’ve been working towards, and He’s provided me with His Spirit and His Word to help us make wise choices in light of this ball of change that is rolling toward me. And He will provide the means necessary to move forward, I just need to keep taking steps. Steps of faith. Wise steps. And all the glory will go to Him.

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Pray. Rest. Do. July 16, 2012

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I’ve been struggling with some anxiety for the last several days that has melted itself into every imaginable area of my life and it’s really, really ugly. I tend to get my heart wrapped tightly around things and when they don’t go my way…. well, I get really uptight about it, as if God just slapped me across the face and turned His back on me. Obviously this is not the case, but I let myself feel that way sometimes when I don’t see the results I was looking for as quickly as I wanted them to happen. I get things turned so backwards sometimes expecting God to work on my time table, according to my plan… instead of me working on His timetable and according to HIS plan. 

 

So today I have been deeply reminded to PRAY. And pray hard. It’s ok to want things and to want them badly. But I need to look at what I’m wanting and see if it’s for me or for Him. And am I ok with not getting it…. even it if was for His glory? You see He might want something else for me. Something that might bring Him more glory. The thing I want might be just the thing God will use to shape me more into the image of Christ, or it might take something else. I need to be flexible. For now… I will pray, pour out my heart to God and let Him know my desires. Tell him how I think they will bring Him glory. And then let Him decide if they will.

 

Secondly, I will REST. I tend to take matters into my own hands and make a mess of things. I pray and take action immediately and end up doing all the wrong things. I frustrate my husband. I frustrate my kids. I frustrate my friends. Grrr…. who else can I frustrate today?! (Or am I just being too self focused THINKING that everyone is frustrated with me?!) Instead I need to take a minute to rest. Rest on a sovereign God who has all things in control. Rest that he has the days of my life planned out for me… and they result in a perfect end. Rest, trusting that He will provide for all the needs of my family. Rest in Him. 

 

Thirdly, I will DO. Because action must take place. Praying does change things. And Resting in God’s arms is vital so that I don’t mess everything up. But Doing so SO vitally important. Because no matter how I feel, I need to continue to walk, to work, to live. No matter how down I am about whatever situation, I still have kids that need to be dressed and fed and who need to play and learn and grow. I have a husband who needs me to be his best friend and greatest cheerleader. We have to provide for our families. All of these things and so much more need to take place. Every. Single. Day. 

 

So today I am Praying to my great God who is my rock, resting in His arms, and taking action to work toward the goals I’ve been praying so hard about, trusting Him with the results, whatever they may look like. 

 

 
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